showing up for the movies a little too late

If only things were as simple as a retro pop song, "I want you to want me..." boom end of story. But it's never that easy, is it... As humans it's only in our nature to make mistakes. Living your life like the lyrics of a song or the script of a movie really isn't living. It's us wanting, no matter the situation we always want more, reguardless of what we need. We strive to make things closer to "perfect" and in that we become blind to what's going on. We become so absorbed in our wanting that we try to gain contol, when really we have no right at all. The beauty of it is that God gives us what we need not what we want. It's only when we listen to him that realize that. For the past 3 weeks he has been talking to be but i've been listening but I haven't acted on it. I've wanted to but in my pathetic attempt to keep a little contol of my life. I held on, but the longer i held on the more i hated it. I wanted to get rid of how I felt and what i was holding onto. And tonight it just hit me, Chelsea what the hell are you doing! It was like a brick wall, I've prayed over and over to let God have control. So why was i fighting it, and did i really even want what i was fighting it!? I took a deep breath and I let it all go. And i must say it feels amazing. Jesus is a good man and he knows exactley what he is doing! So why i question things I don't know.

So today i learned that you should really think about what you ask a customer before you say it to them.
A man walked up to the counter in the bookstore, gave me that "how you doin kind of look, as i was eyed up and down, and slammed his purchase down and the counter. can i just say AWKWARD! So I rang up his purchase, looked up at him, smiled and asked "is there anything else i can help you with today or is thing going to be it for you?" This man looks at me, winks and says well unless you're interested in getting married and having children... and i just kinda laughed it off...meanwhile he just stood there looking at me. Finally he goes, well I guess that's it then... so i pressed the total button and replied with you're total today will be 39.75. I was trying very hard not to laugh at the current situation as he handed me his card. I finished the sale handed him his bag and said happy holidays! he started to walk away, got to the door, stopped and turned back to look at me muttered something about a christmas eve wedding and went on his way.....
and people think that working in the bookstore is boring.... oh if you only knew!